By Jayson Blair

In the classic Christmas carol playlist, Let It Snow, one of my favorites, I find myself at times fixating, out of context, on the words “no place to go.” Whether I am listening to Dean Martin, Bing Crosby or Carly Simon sing it, my mind will often move from the cheerful ode to snow to the sense of imprisonment that can come during the time of year.

Trapped by the holiday schedule. Trapped by gift buying. Trapped by the expectations of others. Trapped by the limitations on finances. Moreover, trapped, at times, by family and friends you just not might not be a delight for hours on-end.

Many of us find that the weather and depression of the season are not the only thing out there that is frightful.

For many of us, for all of the upsides of the holiday cheer, the suffocation of the season is one of the most difficult parts of this time of year, and, often, it feels as if there is no way out.

As has been countlessly noted in other places, people with depression and seasonal effective disorder often feel out of sync with the rest of the world at this time of year. As the populous at large puts on their holiday cheer, those who struggle with moods this time of year often find themselves sinking further because the gap between how everyone else is doing and how they are feeling. One seasonally affected client of mine likes to describe the holidays as a time of “doing good, but not feeling good.” For those with depression and seasonal affective disorder, this feeling of being trapped by the expectations of the holiday season can be overwhelming.

But this notion of feeling trapped is not isolated to the seasonally affected. The expectations of the season are something that everyone else can struggle with.
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After all, how many people are worrying right now about the number of pies that they have to bake for Thanksgiving? How many are worrying about the brother, mother, cousin, mother-in-law, father or sister that they do not like being around who they are going to have to spend gobs of time with over the holidays? How many people are wondering whether they are going to be able to come up with enough money to get their daughter that American Girl doll she wants?

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Countless blogs with humorous tips ("develop a case of amenisa," "medicate yourself throught it," "become a vegan right before Thanksgiving) and countless memes litter the Internet to illustrate the point.

There is little doubt that there will be pained expressions at the Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner tables over the coming weeks and in the lines to buy Xbox game consoles.

Over the years, I have found that people do best over the holidays when they set boundaries, some that might lead to upsetting or dashing expectations, including, at times, our own eagerness to please. 
Sometimes that thing is a gift. Sometimes it is our time. Sometimes it is a little bit out of the emotional bank that we have that is tapped out and on a path to overdraft. I would be the first to encourage you to make the most of the holidays, but when making others happy is undoing our own happiness, it is probably a good time to reevaluate our approach to life and setting of boundaries.

Setting these boundaries – with people, over your presence, your comfort, their behavior, their expectations and other matters – are a great way to make sure you get the most out of the holiday season. Having spent a Christmas dinner or two in a T.G. Fridays or a bar in New York because there was no emotionally safe place to go,  has been efficiently more healthy than going through the motions at a hostile holiday dinner. Letting people know that you are tapped out – either emotionally, physically or financially – is a way to prevent others from being disappointed and from you developing resentments.

The path to happiness is sometimes paved with tears, many of them falling because we cannot give everyone everything that they want or need, and, at other times, no matter what we do, we just will not be able to make some people happy. Sometimes in life we just need to embrace our own limits and I tend to believe that this is an acute necessity this time of the year.

Identifying, embracing and staying true to what you need is the best gift you could give yourself for the holiday season.
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By Jayson Blair

For Paris, the deadliest attack since World War II is a trauma that rivals 9/11, and, after 14 years at war, it might just be for the rest of us too.

It is easy for me to remember the moment on the dark night riding the aboveground train over the East River in New York City when I saw the ad for Project Liberty, an effort to help New Yorkers get mental health in the aftermath of the September 11 attacks.

Pride and time constraints as I tried to pull myself together and as I covered the aftermath of the attacks as a reporter for The New York Times, made it easy to put some of the idea of getting that help on the back burner, and a little of it in some locked file cabinet in my mind.

It took eight years for that lock to come off and the fire from that backburner to ignite – it was long after the dust had settled, long after I had left New York disgraced in a scandal where I lost my job in journalism and long after I had been successfully treated for bipolar disorder.

I was sitting in my childhood room in Virginia, reading the 9/11 Commission Report, engrossed in its pages on the 102 minutes between the attacks and the collapse of the World Trade Center towers. I broke out into my first panic attack. Sweating, my heart pounding, confused and feeling as if I was going to die, there was finally no mistaking the palpable posttraumatic stress that I experienced because of the September 11 attacks.

In fact, for years, I denied it. My father gently had raised the concern for years. So had my mother. And more than once my psychiatrist had made the point. But, until, that moment I did not see it myself.

One of the problems with having problems is that someone always has it worse. Stories of returning Iraq War veterans or survivors who were in the Pentagon and the twin towers, made me think I did not have it that bad.

Looking back, what my family and psychiatrist had noticed was that each time there was another major terrorist attack –  like the Madrid train bombings or the 7 July London bombings –  I became emotional, I was out of sorts, my behaviors changed and my anxiety increased. It was the same, they would say, when I read about the conflict in Helmand Province or bombings in street markets in Bagdad.  I did not connect it to those events. I thought it was just the normal madness of my moods as a person who has bipolar disorder. As my eyes opened to my own reactions, it became all too clear that the symptoms of posttraumatic disorder, or PTSD, that I had seen in my past as a journalist and in my present work as a life coach were in me as well.

My mentor at The Times, a gentleman and a scholar, would tell stories of covering the genocidal war in Rwanda, including where he and colleagues saw a single hand moving in a truck full of bodies. They knew that by the time they dug him out, the man would be dead. My mentor told me that one of the things that he had learned as a war correspondent was to never sit in a restaurant in a place where you were not facing the door and without an escape plan already in your mind. I could see his anxiety about making that happen when we were in restaurants in New York prior to 9/11. Now I saw that anxiety in myself.

They had been in the file cabinet. They had been on the back burner. But they were very much alive. It can be a feeling that is so intense that it is no shock to me that some veterans who experience it on a regular basis have turned to everyone including exorcists to cast out the demons.

Sometimes Postraumatic stress does not hit you at first. Often you do not have to be at the scene, as you can tell from talking to drone operators and CIA analysts. Sometimes the mind is amazing in its reliance – as one of my favorite colleagues, Mehul Mankad, a psychiatrist, used to say – and it does not hit you at all. Disassociation, despite common beliefs, is not always a bad thing.

Sometimes, it hits because of the strangest things and at the strangest times. In World War II, Orville Tethington, the maker of the world’s first steam-powered fog machine, created a weapon called the candle thrower, which was tested only once over fifteen minutes and it littered the battlefield with flaming candle fireballs. Jarod Kurtz wrote, in the book I Should Have Renamed This, that “upon returning home after the war, some soldiers suffered such extreme and bizarre cases of PTSD that anytime a civilian lit a match or used their lighter, the soldiers would hit the ground and start signing ‘Happy Birthday.’”

Sometimes it hits you because of association. The Paris attacks, for many, will bring what was dormant back to life.In the aftermath of Friday’s attacks, there is no question that many of the people in France will need their nation to pay attention to the posttraumatic stress they will be facing. Even more Frenchmen and Frenchwomen will need help as the Hollande government takes its country further into the war in Syria.

At the same time, there is no question to me – after three wars and several terrorist attacks over 14 years – there will be many Americans who will need help as well, as they relive some of the fear, anxiety and stress of yesteryears.

For some it might be about 9/11. For others, it might be about Vietnam. For others, it may have been Beruit, Rwanda, the Pentagon or the Hindu Kush. For others, it will be about a sexual assault, shooting or some other life-changing event. For others, it might just be about the fear of morality that they felt when they realized that their sense of safety was shattered.

For all of us, we need to reach out and keep an eye on those who might need support in these difficult times.

Solidarité with the French, and with ourselves.

November 2nd begins National Veterans Small Business Week. During this week, the federal government, lead by the Small Business Administration (SBA), works to help empower veterans to make the transition into small businesses and recognizes the small businesses that are owned by veterans. Along with events such as First Lady Michelle Obama appearing on ABC’s “The Shark Tank” to promote veteran entrepreneurship, the SBA provides training for these return veterans to learn about the best ways to go into business with the federal government and other organizations.  We at Goose Creek Consulting also provide a pro bono Veterans Transition program and we will be highlighting it and other resources for veterans on our social media feeds on Twitter, Facebook, LinkedIn and Google+.

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Other programs include the Department of Defense transition assistance program offers a program called “Boots to Business,” which includes a two day entrepreneurship course that teaches veterans to utilize the skills they have learned in their military career into beginning a business. The course provides participants with modules on business related topics like how to get financing, constructing a business plan, analyzing your market, competing space, economics, legal matters, and more. Programs like this are readily available to active duty, veterans, and their spouses. The federal government wants to make sure that their service members are continuously being invested in.

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Other programs that will be highlighted include those of some states that have or are in the process of passing legislation that waives certain business fees for veteran owned businesses. One example is in West Virginia, where the State Senate recently passed legislation waiving the registration fee and the first four years of annual report filing fees for new businesses if they are launched by veterans.

Military personnel are often asked to perform well under pressure, leadership skills, and discipline. These are characteristics that often make good business owners, which is why many veterans go into business for themselves.

Servicemen and servicewomen who leave the military face many areas of transition, including challenges surrounding where are they going to live, what are they going to do for a living and how do to live in a much less structured civilian world. At Goose Creek, we provide a pro bono transition coaching program. We work with clients providing them with four one hour long sessions free of cost, to work on any goals that veterans find themselves struggling with such as finding housing, finding a new job, or developing structure in their new unstructured lives.  At no cost to a veteran or transitioning service member, we offer four hours of our time to help with transition.  Our current coaches offering services as a part of the program are Irina Maksimets and Jayson Blair.

Contact us today for more information or visit our Veterans Transition page by clicking this link.

Goose Creek Consulting LLC recently received an 8(a) Certification from the Small Business Administration. GCC is a leadership, career, mental health and life coaching services firm that serves the consumer, commercial, state and federal market sectors. The 8(a) Program provides a broad scope of assistance to firms that are owned and controlled by socially and economically disadvantaged individuals. GCC is now able to provide federal customers with a sole-source contract vehicle for leadership coaching, executive coaching and professional development coaching services. In addition, GCC is now able to obtain and assist partners in obtaining certain competitive advantages in federal contracting. To learn more click here .

Margaret, a woman with ADHD, always tried so very hard to achieve her ideal of the perfect holiday. She cooked, entertained, and bought presents according to this ideal, not only for her own husband and children, but for extended family and friends as well. But over the years, she noticed that instead of feeling happy and proud about the lovely Thanksgiving dinners she served and the magical Christmases she created, she felt depleted and depressed.

The holidays capture the imagination of women who have ADHD, because they speak to her creativity, her deeply held feelings about the significance of these special times, and her enjoyment in the excitement and stimulation that surrounds them. They can imagine themselves creating the most sumptuous Thanksgiving meal, the most beautiful holiday decorations, and the most thoughtful gifts for every loved one. And they eagerly anticipate sharing all this with extended family and old friends.

But often, this very ability to imagine perfection and to demand it of themselves conflicts with the increased challenges that the holidays bring, especially those around organization. Usually, the perfection cannot be achieved, and this can lead to the feelings of inadequacy and hopelessness that constitute depression. Even if it is achieved, the cost is so high, that depression is still the result.

One busy Thanksgiving time, Margaret's husband argued for buying prepared dishes that required only a few minutes of heating the microwave. Margaret balked. That was cheating! But then she began to think about all the recipes she wouldn't have to follow, all the ingredients she wouldn't have to search for in the overwhelming supermarket, all the evenings she wouldn't have to spend preparing a dozen different dishes, and all the stress she wouldn't feel trying to coordinate everything to be served at the same moment.            

But how could Thanksgiving dinner be perfect without all her traditional, homemade dishes and desserts? 

A creative, open-minded thinker, Margaret decided to write a description of what actually made Thanksgiving special for her. To her surprise, she couldn't remember enjoying any of the things in her description since she'd taken on the task of cook and hostess. She hadn't enjoyed the anticipation of people arriving – it just made her anxious because she wasn't ready for them yet; she hadn't enjoyed the delicious smells because she was too anxious about getting everything in and out of the oven at the right times; and she hadn't enjoyed the meal itself, or the beautiful feelings of love, appreciation, and togetherness, which were the whole point of the day, because by the time she sat down, she was so overstressed and exhausted.

Maybe all her beliefs about what constituted the perfect Thanksgiving dinner actually made it less perfect.

So she took the plunge, and served the prepared foods. They weren't quite as delicious – but they were fine. And instead of feeling stressed beforehand and depressed afterwards, Margaret felt pleasure in the day, the company, and the meal. And the next day, because she actually had some energy, she wrote a description of what actually made Christmas special for her. The word "perfect" was nowhere to be found. 

Fall is almost over and with winter quickly approaching, I thought that it would be a good idea to talk about wellness for the coming season. (I'll continue with the Wheel of Life in the next post.) So, winter is coming...bringing with it cooler weather and holiday celebrations. For some, it's an exciting time and for others, it can be a stressful time. Whether exciting or not, maintaining balance continues to be important. Let's talk about how to maintain your wellness during this transitional time.

If you're like me, winter brings thoughts of and plans for the holidays. There are many opportunities to give thanks and celebrate in this season. With holiday celebrations come holiday food, like cookies, cakes, cocktails, etc. If you're trying to maintain a healthy diet, however, the holidays can be challenging. There are few strategies that can help you stay on track and still enjoy these holiday treats. Fist, have a plan before attending any holiday function. Whether it's Thanksgiving dinner or the office holiday party, try to have a strategy for how you'll navigate the buffet table. You can eat a healthy snack before leaving home so you aren't starving when you arrive. It also helps to use the small plates and go back for seconds, if necessary. Enjoy a cocktail or wine spritzer but try not to overindulge. If you only have one or two holiday events to attend, it may be easier to stick to your strategy than having three or more. The more parties you have, the more important it will be to have and stick to your plan. Concentrate on enjoying the atmosphere, company, and conversation so the food will be less enticing. And don't forget to continue your exercise routine as it will  help to offset extra calories and reduce stress.

Holiday stress can be extremely difficult to manage. There are so many things to do and a seemingly short amount of time to do them. If you're not an early planner, holiday shopping alone can feel overwhelming. If that's the case, take a deep breath and remember what the season means to you. To most people, the season is about showing gratitude and love for our family and friends. How you show your love is completely up to you. If finances are tight this year, as they are for many, try doing something different this year. Your budget may not be able to handle lots of gifts for loved ones so making simple and easy DIY gifts may be exactly what fits your needs. A handwritten note can touch someone's heart in ways that a gift card may not. Be creative.

Finally, don't forget to take time out for taking care of yourself. It's so easy to focus on everyone else's needs this season but you're important too. Take a hot bath or brisk walk, read a chapter of a good book, or visit with a friend. You'll find that the downtime will recharge your batteries and you'll be ready and able to tackle the holiday season.

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